Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Surely I've lost my mind

Bryan is back on the bench at work, which means that for the next 11 days we'll be sharing a house.

11 days until he moves out.  This stresses me out more than I can say.

So what did I do? 

I signed up for three months at Match.com .  But wait!  I'm not ready to date!  But wait, I need to focus on Katherine this summer!  But wait, I'm too busy to date!  Didn't I say that it wasn't for me?  Didn't I say that I didn't want that in my life right now?

Maybe it's Cuckoo Mama's rekindled romance.  Maybe it is that in my divorce support group, out of ten women, four have found really fabulous relationships in the past few months, and they're having the time of their lives.  Maybe it's that my boss has the best relationship ever with her husband, and witnessing it makes me long for something like that.

Or maybe it's just that I've lost my mind. 


  1. Just repeat to yourself over and over... Transitional relationship, Transitional relationship...

    Have fun. Be safe. Coffee date! (And don't take it too seriously.)

    Good luck out there.

  2. I enjoyed reading your blog, especially about biting your tongue. My husband and I have separated after many years of living together because neither of us wanted to be apart from the kids. (I'm not promoting this idea, but just stating a fact.) I finally quit trying to "make things right" and just accepted things as they were, and, yes, I bit my tongue quite a bit, and I think he did, too. Essentially, we lived together for several years without the benefits of marriage, so being apart is good. Thankfully we are still getting along well, and he feels more like a member of my family, not my husband. I guess that's good...a little creepy, but good for all involved. Can you point me to a blog from an older divorced woman, maybe one without kids at home? Good luck in your transition.

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  3. BLW, when you said "relationship" I got a chill, and not of the good kind. LOL I'm ready to play and have fun, but I have no idea when that would be. And the kind of people online who want to play and have fun don't always look like people I'd want to hang out with - they look like "players". I think I have inadvertantly made a donation to Match.com because I don't think I thought that one through, and I don't see myself using it. Argh!

    Anonymous (please consider giving yourself a pseudonym here if you'd like to be anonymous, but that way I can track our conversations to know who I'm speaking with :-) ), thanks for coming by. I love hearing others' stories, and I am grateful to hear of other divorcing couples who went out of their way to make divorce work for their children. Check out This Cuckoo's Nest (link on the side of my blog) about a woman who is "birdnesting" with her ex for the sake of the kids. Check out Big Little Wolf's blog Daily Plate of Crazy (link on the side of my blog) - she's absolutely fantastic and she's got kids in college. Check back - I'll put up a post requesting divorce blogs, and you can check the comments. Also see my post "The Lonely High Road" http://pollyannasdivorce.blogspot.com/2012/05/lonely-high-road.html as there are great blogs listed there, including the two I mentioned here.

    I actually think that 'a member of the family' sounds like a great place to be....not creepy at all.

    I hope you come back, and share your wisdom with me as well as my readers, as you're farther down the road than I am.

  4. Polly. I do have a rekindled romance but the 1000 miles between us provides a whole lot of safety for me. I am not ready for a boyfriend at all. He is like a pretend bf. if he was in town I would not be able to do it!

    I'm back in my scared phase of 'can I do this on my own'?