After my coffee date - still considered a success because I put myself out there and kept my dignity - I decided that I'm just not ready for any of that. I deleted the OkCupid profile that I'd had for a few months, and the Match.com one that I never paid for but used to see what else what out there, and I decided that I am just not ready.
Table for one, please.
I wish I was, but I'm not.
It is hard isn't it? I'm ready for some things but definitely not others. Like I'm not ready to have anyone else need something from me. Maybe I'm ready to sleep around but not have a relationship! (J/K!)
ReplyDeleteCuckoo, it IS hard. And the idea of someone needing something from me right now makes me want to run, faster than I've ever run before, because I am utterly tapped out as it is. I think you know what I'm talking about - this juggling act we are living in our new lives is enough to take it completely out of me, and perhaps you, too.
ReplyDeleteAnd as for sleeping around, don't think I haven't thought of it! You say you're kidding, but there is a certain amount of sense to it, at some basic level. Maybe not total promiscuity, but just a little...playfulness? But every time I think of it, right now it seems like too much work, and that's not exactly a sexy approach. I don't think it's for me....but it does have some appeal. ;-)